Sunday, May 8, 2011

Until today...

Up until today I wore a ring on the third finger of my left hand.  I say the third finger because some people don't really consider the thumb a "finger."  The ring itself meant nothing.  I put it on 5 years ago when my wedding ring came off.  My finger felt funny naked so I replaced my wedding band with a plan little silver ring.  My grandmother gave it to me several years ago, and I had never really looked twice at it.  At the time it seemed to fit the need I had for it. 

I wore that ring for years after.  At first as a filler for my missing band, then later as a decoy so others wouldn't know I was single.  Finally I kept it on because I thought I'd found a new love, but marriage seemed out of reach.  So I wore the ring to symbolize...something. 

Today I removed the ring from my finger for good.  There is no point to it.  My finger will not fall off without it, and if the "love" I thought were so right and good there would be a ring to replace it by now.  But there is not.  So I embrace the nakedness of all my fingers.  There is no meaning in a symbol that means nothing...and there is no point in pretending something stands for something it is not.

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